Random Ramblings

Looks like I'm back on the daily-update track. :D Sorry about all that. But hey, it's how I keep in touch. ;D
Hmm... let me sort through the nonsense I wrote today.... D:

I made plans for today... at like, 5 in the morning. XD
( What a schedule looks like to me. )
( Then, I went BATSHIT at myself. Seriously. GAH. )

( Then, I chronicled my day. Pretty blah blah. It was alright. Not very productive. )

( THEN, I went on the internet. I wrote about the rest of my evening, and the state of my brain - which is not good- and postulated why.... Then, I went batshit AGAIN because it took nearly an HOUR to load a 10 MB image up on DA, and I'm really REALLY fucking tired. >:[ )

In brighter, more constructive news, MY VIDEO IS UP!!! :D
I WOKE UP THIS MORNING AND IT WAS UPLOADED!!! THANK GOD!!!

And, I'm now taking SKETCH COMMISSIONS!!! http://seira-chan33.deviantart.com/journal/22025882/
For more details, go to the respective sites. : ]

... Though, I don't know who'd want to commission someone so OBVIOUSLY batshit. I'm making a real great case for myself, yeah? D: At least it's not on DA.... But still. HRRRRRN.
I promise, if you commission me, I'll take it SUPER FUCKING SERIOUSLY. XD Honestly, I will. I'm not going to mess around with people...

Eh, I'd better stop while I'm ahead.

I hope you guys are doing better than I am. I really do. D:
... Please don't worry about me though. I'm ranting and raving right now. I'm going to try and get my shit together, starting with some sleep in about a half an hour. I'm just bleeding and starving mentally, physically, emotionally, partly on my own fault, partly not. Wait, yeah, it is all my fault. WTF. What am I saying. AND DUH, THAT'LL MAKE YOU WORRY MORE, AAAH. (I'm not cutting, just my uterus is having fun times... oi. Blood loss, cramps, and hormones. FUN.) Anyway. I've seen the error of my ways, and since I don't want to feel so motherfucking horrible, I'll get a grip on myself. I'm just full of seething hate to still be AWAKE. DAMMIT.
Ugh, I feel disgusting.

I really hope Eva... didn't do this to me- because of course, everything right now is being seen through an EVA FILTER lol... It made me think, sure. That's not bad. I think, it's the combination of lack of structure and exercise, now that school is out, and the stress of things I put off compounding upon me, finally. And my period. And my house. And not eating enough. It's not the thinking that's getting to me, oddly- it's my INABILITY to think. My basic functioning is failing. I need to fix that. I will...

Ok, now off I go. I'll report how TODAY goes tomorrow... hopefully, better. D8
*EDIT!* THE SISTER GOT UP YAY I CAN HAS SLEEP NOW!!!

I figured out something yesterday, while doing the dishes and humming the tune from that Monkey advert, and pondering things. The train of thought went something like "I like Jamie's work - like that animation - I like how there's a roughness to the lines, how it looks like it's actually been drawn-" and then, I guess because the subject matter was Chinese, it got me thinking. Isn't that part of philosophy behind the painting and calligraphy, in China, Japan...? It's almost as much to do with making the piece as it is the finished piece - a lot of calligraphy is meditative... Correct me if I'm wrong, though..

Excerpted from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chinese_painting :

(the first of six principles of chinese painting as established by Xie He in the 5th cent.)
"Spirit Resonance", or vitality, and seems to translate to the nervous energy transmitted from the artist into the work. The overall energy of a work of art. Xie He said that without Spirit Resonance, there was no need to look further."

"They created a new kind of art in which they used their skills in calligraphy (the art of beautiful writing) to make ink paintings. From their time onward, many painters strove to freely express their feelings and to capture the inner spirit of their subject instead of describing its outward appearance."

Something like that?

Now it all makes sense.

That's why I always find my sketches infinitely more interesting than cleanly-inked ones. Why I've ended up inking more sketchily. Why I use a brush, pens, and markers instead of the computer's fill can. Why I like those Xeroxed animations, why I like Hewlett's drawings, why I like 2D, hand-drawn animation more than 3D. I like things that look like they've been touched by human hands.

( continuation... )