Random Ramblings

( I had a trippy as hell dream this morning... )

Anyway, sorry for the weird dream. XD I'm going home today to visit my family!! Which is a long overdue visit, and I hope you all have a happy Halloween, All Soul's Day, Samhain, whatever you prefer to call it. : ] I guess the moral of the story is, also celebrate those people who you love who are no longer with us, not just candy and parties. Celebrate the spirits too. :]

I had a WEIRD dream last night. It's like all of my fears about my fish manifested themselves. D:
( weird dreams, and weird feelings. D: Also, painting class. )

It's nearly 4 AM.
I finished my draft for my English paper, and mailed it out to all my classmates.
I got their papers.
I stayed up thanks to the powers of the tea you get when you get from Chinese take out and lots of Easter candy...
I looked up this teacup and saucer I found at the Goodwill on Saturday, only to find out it's worth $30. AND it's the perfect Edgeworth cup. Well damn. D: http://www.replacements.com/webquote/ROALAC.htm (it's the Malvern cup and saucer set....) Shoulda bought it... I'll have to see if it's there tomorrow... D8
I have 4 hours before I can register for classes. Damn.
And I'm zombily holding on to being awake. I think I shall turn in.

Also, today we helped rescue a sweet little dog who had escaped, but instead of warm fuzzies, we got the creeps, kinda, from the owner's sister who took it.... I'll explain later. It was just weird. D:

Also also, been having super weird dreams lately. I'll post some later, too. Last night it was an anime, which was cool- but the night before, it was super creepy mummy ghosts. DDD8
Specifically, 3 Incan mummies floating in the air and muttering malevolent incantations in my direction.
http://library.thinkquest.org/J003409/inca.htm
This talks about the article I think I saw... It was either that or something on TV....
http://images.google.com/images?q=incan%20mummy&oe=utf-8&rls=org.mozilla:en-US:official&client=firefox-a&um=1&ie=UTF-8&sa=N&hl=en&tab=wi
Goddammit why do these creepy as fuck things haunt me so??? D8
I guess the thought of being left to freeze and die is pretty horrifying. It left an impression.
But this is twice now they've showed up in my dreams/mind's eye. Though, I do think I was watching forensics shows both times near then.... Hmmmmmmm.
Stop being so fucking creepy... XD

Nnng I'm going to go to sleep....

Things I have learnt in the past couple days:

( quite a bit )

I had a weird dream last night.

( separating these entries... because?? )

OK!
I'm going to try writing this in like, 10 minutes. GOOOO.

Well, I'm alright, I've been cleaning. I've cleaned off 4 shelves on this giant metal shelf, and filled 3 of them with craft stuff, like I wanted. Except, I don't know what to put on the rest of it, since I have WAAAAAAAAAAAAY too much fabric to fit on one shelf, but... argh
and I have no idea what to do with paints and shit.

Whhaaaaat.

But yeah, I'm ok...

I talked with mom last night, and I think I've conceded she's right, about shit, even though I don't want to admit it. X [ ARghagihafiogjkbcnv. emoemoemo. I fail in the shadow of her having more life experience. -_-'''''''

Anyway.

Didn't go for a walk yesterday, so now I'm all agaiodgjoadfsg again. So I'll goooo...

I have a serious problem with throwing shit out. DX I need to get over that. And having a whole ton of my sister's and mom's stuff in my room doesn't help. Especially when they don't have time/aren't willing to help....
But I'm doing better.
And the DUST IN THERE OMG OMG...

Dreams:

( weirdness... )

So yeah. I'm gonna go for a walk. Erk...

Took me 20 minutes. Not bad...

Ok, now if you're looking for a glimpse into how depression feels like, check the last post. :D But if you want to find out how I'm doing TODAY, then.... check this.

7:38 PM
Errmmmmm...
Duh.

They had Hellboy on AGAIN - Yay, the family can watch it now. : P - and... duh. Liz says that. John's all "What can I do??" and she says "Hit me."
"What?"
"HIT ME!"
*slap*
*fwoom fire*

weeeiiird. XD


Man, that movie is pretty darned cool. It's funny and serious and awesome and yadayada. XD
It also realllly makes me want to draw more ridiculously elaborate clothes, and shit. And then I remembered "I've got demons. :D" And Vince. But yeah...
I did sketches of how Trigger might look in a more "official" form, in a Russian sort of caftan or something, with longer hair. And then this morning...
Yeah...
Trigger doesn't really look like what he appears to be. He can change his appearance. He REALLY... looks like a sort of dragon-ish monster thing. XD With dark gray skin, pointy ears, a shock of gray hair, a tiny nose... etc. That's also why his amulet is on such a long chain - it's so it still fits when he's a monster...

And I'm TOTALLY just learning more things about this guy as I go along...

Yeah...

And I thought to myself last night "why don't I ever have cool dreams. Like if I was in Hellboy or something."
And guess whaaat? 8D
I did! XD( DREAM SEQUENCE!!! 8D )


I was still feeling emo this morning, and kept falling back asleep. I'd sit up, then just fall over. I finally got up by 1 PM, ate some cereal, watched some of those "A Haunting" shows, and kinda looked around my room. The frustration was mounting, and I had to do something before I went apeshit on something.

I got dad up at 4 like he asked, and asked if I could go for a walk. "Yeah sure."

It was that fuckin' easy?!?!

I just got outside, and it was like THANK GOD. It was so nice to get out. I could even probably go to Taco Bell or something one day. But I just walked around my block, jogged for a couple minutes, stretched, came back inside, and took a shower.

I feel 100 TIMES BETTER. XD SOOOOO much better. XD XD XD

And I've got sorta a plan for my room. I've discerned that its all either toys, craft/art supplies, books, or old school papers. That's all I fucking have in my room. XD And some art projects themselves. All I need to do now is go through it all, and come up with some sort of organizational system.
Ughhh....

But it'll get done! I know it!

WAAAAH I'm so happy to be so much more positive!!!!!!! XD XD XD

Hit me.

Hit me as hard as you can.

( [seriously] )

I got stuff.... I have to do.... XD

Here's the list:

( Liiiiiist )



I did figure out what classes I was taking. Since I felt like a total lameass for not knowing what I was taking. D8 Turns out, I only have 4 classes next semester. Which is why I kept thinking "There's just GOTTA be more!!!" Since I took SIX last semester.... Only, I'm taking 12 credits, meaning I have to take 16 next semester to keep my scholarship. D8 D8 DX Yeah.... hmmmmmmmmm....


In the meantime, I was having some weird dreams last night. The only one I can remember was that I got an email (like I was on there mailing list like my mom is...?) from www.shopgoodwill.com, and they had a Volks Super Dollfie on there (or at least, that's what it was supposed to be. Never actually saw one that looked like him...). D8 Liek OMG. What the hell??? And he was FREAKIN' ADORABLE too. Of course, the little sketch I did turned out cuter, since he had those unfortunate alien-looking eyes that end up on Volks dolls a lot... :/ But he came with a floofy pale blonde wig and dark gray-green eyes, b0x0rz, apparently some clothes they didn't put in the picture, and... cheetah ears. XD Like OMFG adorable Lion-king-style floppy ears. XD
But the opening bid was like $600. D8 WTFFFFF???
I kept not believing it. XD
I was like "Hey, I could do some sweet stop-motion stuff..." *instantly video plays in head* "Awesooomme..."

And of course, since he was a catboy, I was ALREADY planning a Schrodinger costume for him.
...I think I have a mild Schrodinger obsession. XD But he's just so adorabllllllleee *is shot*

And our turkey in the fridge smells like walnuts. :/ I'm not eatin' any of that..


Annnnd Erinnnn??? You don't like dolls, but do you mind action figures/figurines? :9 I just has me a great idear. XD