Random Ramblings

-Ludo, Good Will Hunting by Myself

( WE MIGHT BE GETTING CABLE INTERNET. OMG. AND MOM'S NOT WAKING US UP ANYMORE. OMG!!! XD )

With Tina Fey and Amy Poehler Nah, just me.

Cookies, Cleaning, Quibbling, Phoenix Wright, and Brawl. That's about it. :D
AND MY BOOKSHELF!!! KAJSGIGOADFGJ!!! YES!!! IT IS UP!!! And I put books on it today. :B (Monday)

These aren't too long. I think. : | ?

( Friday )
( Saturday )
( Sunday )

Monday, Tuesday, and a little bit of Wednesday, for y'all's viewing pleasure. XD Or perhaps, displeasure.

----- MONDAY -----

( The morning, going to Barnes & Noble, Nana comic review )
( VALKYRIE!! )
( Financial woes.... D8 )
( HELLSING OVA V REVIEW )
( Evening, dinner, and PHONE HOME... )
----- TUESDAY -----
( Morning errands and MMMM RAMEN!!! )
( Hellsing ANIME - episodes 1-3 )
( TO STAFFORD! (part 2) Awesome birthday fun party. XD )
( Tangent on drugs... Fears, and reminiscing about a person I once knew... )
( Tuesday night/Early Wednesday morning )

I'll post the rest of the rant about coming home later. I posted the pertinent bits already, really, so I need to just find what isn't redundant and post that. XD

Ahmmmmm...
WELL.
So, I wrote a whole bunch of stuff about the past couple days.
So much happened in them... it turned into quite a lot.
( WTF should I do with all of it? XD Come on guys, help me out! )

Also - just so y'all know - my family... DIDN'T guilt-trip the hell out of me when I got home. What... the heck? XD
I still got a talking-to, by my dad, but either I didn't let it get to me, or it wasn't that harsh. It rolled off pretty damn well, actually- I'm proud! Thing was, they just panicked and got all worried when I didn't call after I got to Rek's place, because of the roads being dark and wet, and the highway, and the distance. I think. They wanted to make sure I wasn't alongside the road somewhere.
Which makes me beg the question- are they going to keep asking if I'm ok when I move out? All the time? Are they going to worry themselves sick if I don't tell them I'm alright, and where I am and made it to where I was going? I go all over town when I'm at school, on a normal day, and they don't require that of me.... so... what the heck? XD I just... don't WANT them to worry- at least, not that much. I want them to care, but not get crazy worried (for their sake) and start acting kinda like stalkers (for my sake...). 0_0
I need some space, I think. 8 |
They are just so afraid to let the birdie fly free, aren't they?

[Written...Tuesday morning, I believe.]
TO STAFFORD!

---New year's presents, Burn After Reading, Food, and ICE SKATING!!!!!---
( SATURDAY~! )

---Yay, quarrelling, taking down Christmas Tree, and NOT CLEANING MY CLOSET. And then writing to myself. (don't worry, it's not written on here.)---

( ...Sunday... )

I wish my parents wouldn't make me feel bad for having a social life. For having a life outside of them.

I wish I would stop feeling like I was going to cry all the time. I really do.
I wish I could feel better about everything.

( etc. etc. )
I'm so afraid, and so fed up.
And I have so much work to do.
... and I know I'm going to catch a guilt-trip something fierce when I get home tomorrow.

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This is the last time I'll abandon you
And this is
The last time I'll forget you
I wish I could
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XD I don't know anymore.
Philosophical stuff. Of sorts.

( Broken Bonds- Freedom )
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( Wind Spirits... )