Random Ramblings

I realized this morning I was getting all "Fight Club" in that last post. All "DAILY GRIND RARARAR" But... here's hoping I don't go batshit insane. I already sleep pretty poorly...

Fuck, I was walking like Marla in the library today just for shits and giggles. XD All angry and "Get out of my way, bitch." But then I was polite when I spoke. XD Ahahaha... But I was thinking "Acting like someone else won't get you anywhere... well, actually, it MIGHT get you somewhere. *smirk* but it won't get you where YOU were meant to go... unless you were meant to..."

Circular arguments ftw.

Oi. Keep a watch on me. If I start talking about people who don't exist (besides my characters, lol) or forgetting doing things, or acting super weird, let me know, ok? ;D

Strychnine is Marla.
Fuckin' Marla. D:

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STRYCHNINE IS MARLAAAAAAAAAA

I'm pretty sure Fight Club is rooted somewhere deeply in the beginning of this whole story. I mean, you've got Sean, who has been split-personality boy for awhile, and now Trigger went and manifested himself - wrenched himself into being, as it were. I randomly came up with him one day, trying to sketch a hand, and then he wouldn't go away. I couldn't stop drawing him... to the point where I said "Ok FINE, you can be in my story!!!"

But Strychnine. I realized she was like Marla sometime this Summer - and watching Fight Club recently kinda reaffirmed it. Because I can totally see her being like "I can't take your shit anymore" to Sean someday, like Marla said to "Tyler." That's where the thought started.

The eyes, the hair, the demeanor, the smoking. All very similar... Also, I was thinking about it, and I'm not entirely sure of which side of Sean she ends up liking - him or "Trigger."

Ah, but I think her initial character ended up looking like a girl I knew at the time, too, and she looks kinda like the actress, come to think of it...

But now I'm like "Fuck." I mean, I realized it before - that the whole "dual personalities" thing is very similar. But I think that Fight Club... just had a profound effect on me.

I can't remember, but I think I saw the VERY end of the movie years ago on HBO (WTF CONFUSING) and most of the movie on FX... about a year and a half ago. Towards the end of my senior year? Because we had just bought a new couch, so I remember. Of course, it was minced to pieces, especially the sex. The violence, oddly... not much if at all. Again, AMERICA...

Anyway.

But I feel like I must've seen more of it somewhere. Or maybe it's just a universal theme... ( babbling under the cut- note - this stuff contains kinda spoilers. But it's mostly me rambling about character development. )

This line always stuck with me. I forever remember Marla as the girl with the bridesmaid's dress... for some reason. Maybe it's just that I like thrift stores. XD

Marla Singer: I got this dress at a thrift store for one dollar.
Narrator: It was worth every penny.
Marla: It's a bridesmaid's dress. Someone loved it intensely for one day, and then tossed it. Like a Christmas tree. So special. Then, bam, it's on the side of the road.
[Grabs Narrator's crotch]
Marla: Tinsel still clinging to it. Like a sex crime victim. Underwear inside out. Bound with electrical tape.
Narrator: Well, then it suits you.
Marla: You can borrow it sometime.

Also, as a side note, I was thinking about it, and I really wouldn't mind a grungy house like the one they had at all. The water and bugs, they'd creep me out to no end. But if those things were tolerable... if it was just an old house, falling apart... oh my god. I love those places. I don't know why, I'm just drawn to them. I love the history they must have... I would spend hours running my hands over the stair railings... THAT's how I feel about them... So cool. I wish I had one of my own.