Random Ramblings

Ok, now if you're looking for a glimpse into how depression feels like, check the last post. :D But if you want to find out how I'm doing TODAY, then.... check this.

7:38 PM
Errmmmmm...
Duh.

They had Hellboy on AGAIN - Yay, the family can watch it now. : P - and... duh. Liz says that. John's all "What can I do??" and she says "Hit me."
"What?"
"HIT ME!"
*slap*
*fwoom fire*

weeeiiird. XD


Man, that movie is pretty darned cool. It's funny and serious and awesome and yadayada. XD
It also realllly makes me want to draw more ridiculously elaborate clothes, and shit. And then I remembered "I've got demons. :D" And Vince. But yeah...
I did sketches of how Trigger might look in a more "official" form, in a Russian sort of caftan or something, with longer hair. And then this morning...
Yeah...
Trigger doesn't really look like what he appears to be. He can change his appearance. He REALLY... looks like a sort of dragon-ish monster thing. XD With dark gray skin, pointy ears, a shock of gray hair, a tiny nose... etc. That's also why his amulet is on such a long chain - it's so it still fits when he's a monster...

And I'm TOTALLY just learning more things about this guy as I go along...

Yeah...

And I thought to myself last night "why don't I ever have cool dreams. Like if I was in Hellboy or something."
And guess whaaat? 8D
I did! XD( DREAM SEQUENCE!!! 8D )


I was still feeling emo this morning, and kept falling back asleep. I'd sit up, then just fall over. I finally got up by 1 PM, ate some cereal, watched some of those "A Haunting" shows, and kinda looked around my room. The frustration was mounting, and I had to do something before I went apeshit on something.

I got dad up at 4 like he asked, and asked if I could go for a walk. "Yeah sure."

It was that fuckin' easy?!?!

I just got outside, and it was like THANK GOD. It was so nice to get out. I could even probably go to Taco Bell or something one day. But I just walked around my block, jogged for a couple minutes, stretched, came back inside, and took a shower.

I feel 100 TIMES BETTER. XD SOOOOO much better. XD XD XD

And I've got sorta a plan for my room. I've discerned that its all either toys, craft/art supplies, books, or old school papers. That's all I fucking have in my room. XD And some art projects themselves. All I need to do now is go through it all, and come up with some sort of organizational system.
Ughhh....

But it'll get done! I know it!

WAAAAH I'm so happy to be so much more positive!!!!!!! XD XD XD